For Cal

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It was two months after Endor.

A perfectly normal (for him) night's sleep was interrupted. It was like a mental hiccup, or a system reboot. He wasn't aware of anything and then-

The bond snapped into place before he gained awareness. It was old and young and familiar, a previously cautious candlelight that felt closer to a hearthfire now, tempered and warming and clear. The memories rushed back as he woke, sitting up with a choked gasp and a flare of Force awareness and anxiety bright enough that he felt Leia awaken on the otherside of the system with it.

He couldn't explain to her. To anyone. All he could do was throw on clothes as he went, grabbing the bare necessities and choking out something about 'Jedi business, another Jedi, I can feel him' before he was loading up R2 and the X-Wing.

Outer Rim.

He went to Botajef. Intersection of major hyperspace lanes. Near Dathomir, near Yavin, it felt significant and right.

And once he was there, he set himself outside of the main city and he reached out, along the bond and just in general, because he knows the bond is good, but at the same time, he isn't confident about it.

Cal Kestis. I'm here. I know you.

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They have time to get through a whole checklist of 'want to do'. That fact doesn't make Luke any happier about Cal slowing down.

He groans and flings his hand out; the drawer rips out from the bedside table and onto the floor, the tube of lube thumping into Luke's hand.

"Yeah." As if he hasn't just half trashed the bedside furniture.

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Although Luke is eager and Cal can feel that through his entire body, he doesn't expect that. The drawer drops to the floor with a clatter that sounds louder than it probably is, and Cal starts, straightening up a little to get a quick look around even though instinct and the Force tells him there's nothing here.

So, of course, as soon as that very momentary shock passes, he has to laugh again while reaching for the lube.

"Calm down," he teases, bending down to bump their noses together and give Luke a quick kiss.

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It does make Luke pause, gazing up at Cal with brief surprise and dawning understanding. Life hasn't been easy for anyone, but he has some idea what Cal went through as a Force user in hiding.

"Sorry," he whispers, tilting up into the kiss. "Wasn't paying attention to the drawer." He steals one more kiss and loosens his grip a little, to give Cal a bit of moving room.

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"It's okay," he says with a smile, and straightens up, absentmindedly stroking his free hand over Luke's thigh. "You would just forget a drawer."

He'd sort of forgotten. One of those things that wasn't important enough to keep fresh by thinking about it over and over again.

With that, he pours some lube onto his fingers and starts warming it up.

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"Wasn't important." Not in the grand scale of things. What matters is Cal, a heavy weight between his legs and against his body and a light, warming presence through his Force and spirit.

He brushes his fingers through Cal's hair lightly. "Don't wait," he asks, maybe tells, but a bit of cool doesn't bother him.

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"You'd think you're the one who's waited years."

But he supposes you reach a point where time becomes meaningless. When thinking back, he's not sure there was really a difference in longing between five and ten years and, after waiting so long, another minute to warm up lube is very unimportant.

There's no reason to do otherwise, though. He'll do what Luke, yes, told him to do. (He doesn't mind.) His hand slips between them, fingers massaging around Luke's entrance for a few moments before he pushes one digit in. And then he bends down again, brushing his lips over Luke's cheek before kissing him again.

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"I haven't had the chance to learn patience," he counters. For him, it's been only long enough for him to miss Cal, not long enough to become familiar with the ache of absence. And with the promise of Cal right here, right now, he's not going to try and muster the patience.

His breath barely catches at the first push, but then he's turning into the kiss, chasing Cal's mouth with his own. He nips very lightly, then tries to draw Cal down into a deeper kiss.

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There are so many things he'd like to say, about time and patience and absence, but with Luke urging him closer like that, none of them seem too important. He goes willingly and, if Luke has no patience anyway, he won't take long with the next finger. After all, it won't have been long for him. Although that actually begs the question which version of their body they actually returned to. How long has it been for Luke's body?

Overthinking it now.

He doesn't add another finger immediately, regardless. But it's also not agonisingly slow, or at least he doesn't intend it to be, when he thrusts that first finger a couple of times. It's still a little tighter than he might have liked when he pushes in the second, and he lifts his head just enough to watch Luke's face.

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It's been a while, as far as Luke's body is concerned. Much longer than the week it should be. He knows it, can feel it in the way his mind knows how to instinctively relax but his body doesn't immediately follow suit.

He takes another kiss, eyes closing to focus on making his body behave and relax and sighs softly when it does. The second draws a small hiccup in his breath but he looks up to meet Cal's gaze and gives him a quirk of a smile. No pain, barely discomfort, more want and love than anything else is pushed over the bond.

"I'm okay," he whispers between their lips, leaning up for the kiss.

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His memory could be off, of course, but he thinks it used to be different. And ... Does that make sense? For them to return to who they were before going to Duplicity? Is that possible? No, overthinking it again. There are legs around him and Luke is kissing him and there are way more important things to focus on. Cal takes a breath, and meets Luke when he leans up, as he pushes two fingers in all the way to the knuckles.

It's been a long time, not just with Luke but with anyone, and just the thought of being inside this tight heat makes his skin prickle.

He pauses for a moment to give Luke's body a bit more time to adjust, then sets a slow rhythm, as he absentmindedly strokes his free hand over Luke's thigh.

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Every time is different and they're not the same people they were there. Cal especially. This time, it feels new and familiar at once and the way Cal's fingers sink into him is almost too much for a moment, pleasure sparking along his spine.

As Cal starts a steady rhythm, Luke lets himself be lulled by it, thoughts drifting to just enjoy sensation, being touched and petted when it feels like his body has almost forgotten pleasurable touches until now.

Making out definitely makes it better though, coaxing Cal into one kiss after another, pushing his tongue into his mouth as Cal's fingers sink into him again and again.

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Would he ever tire of kissing Luke? He couldn't imagine that. Couldn't imagine ever denying Luke all the kisses he might want, when they feel this good. It does make it a little difficult to focus, though, and his hand comes to a stop on Luke's thigh to do little but simply prop it up.

With a quiet moan, he deepens the kiss further while he carefully adds a third finger. Just a little bit more, and then ... Arousal surges at the mere thought of burying himself in Luke.

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It's the surge of Cal's want that draws another moan from Luke, more than anything else. The finger is a slight burn, nothing much, but the want... That's heady and heats him from the inside.

"Soon." The word is barely articulated in the kisses, but it's there and it's a promise more than a plea.

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Soon, not right now, so he keeps those slow rhythmic thrusts going for a few moments longer. When he finally pulls them out, he also pulls away from the kiss, enough to smile down at Luke as he strokes his cheek with his clean hand.

"I can't believe you're here," he whispers breathlessly as he fumbles for the lube again. "Sometimes it felt like the day would never come."

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Luke groans at the loss of both sensation and kiss and pouts for a moment as Cal leans over him, but it's hard to even pretend any upset when Cal's right here and touching him and saying things like that.

"I love you too," is what he settles on saying.

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And he kisses Luke again, but only briefly, because if he keeps that up he's not sure how well he can focus. Arousal has made him very sensitive, and when he spreads lube over his own cock, he hisses and shudders with need.

He once again grabs Luke's thigh, hiking his leg up a little higher, forehead pressed to forehead as he pushes in. Just a little, just the head, which draws a low, long moan from his throat as his eyes flutter shut. It's tight and hot and perfect, so much better than he can remember it being with anyone else, so much better than his own fantasies could conjure even with the memories of Luke with him.

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Luke's breath catches as Cal manhandles him to where he wants, hands coming to his shoulders and then his face, cradling his head as they press close. Brow to brow and then-

"Cal."

Plea. Entreaty. Statement. He just needs to say his name, even if it's breathless. He doesn't try to kiss him again, just lets his own eyes close and focuses on how it feels, physically and through their bond.

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His name has never sounded better than it sounds now. Unless, perhaps, back in Duplicity, but that time is so far away and seems so unimportant right this moment. He could kiss Luke again, that would be nice, but it's also nice to stay put right here and focus on Luke's face, on the sounds he makes, as he slowly thrusts until their hips are flush together.

A shiver travels across his skin, and he brushes his lips over Luke's skin as he shifts to nuzzle his neck. There's no need to pause for too long, he imagines, but he still takes a while to come back to himself a little, to enjoy the taste of Luke's skin against his tongue.

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It takes a few movements and Luke can feel each one through his whole body as Cal pushes, pauses and pushes again until Cal's hips are pressed flush against him, his cock buried deep. He tips his head back into the pillows, to let Cal mouth at his throat as much as he wants.

And for the impatience of before, there's a contentment to the quiet moment, where they're just together, bodies as entwined as possible and sensation ebbing between them through the bond.

He might help that along a bit, pushing the way it feels, hot, full, want, at Cal.

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It's already hot enough, he's already wanting enough, and the help might just drive him mad. Which he supposes is exactly the point. His breath is heavy against Luke's throat, lips pressed there in a sort of open-mouthed kiss as he rocks his hips. It doesn't really move him, it just creates some nice friction that makes him gasp, then he finds a spot near Luke's shoulder to suck on.

Then he finally starts moving properly, with slow but firm thrusts, slowly reminding himself - his body - how they fit together. How to angle his hips, where Luke likes his mouth and his hands. It doesn't take too long, despite all the time that's passed.

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The rocking is a tease of almost what he wants, but now he's got what he so desperately wanted, he's prepared to be a little more patient. Especially when teasing feels so good and inspires those sounds from Cal.

And then-

His eyes are wide and staring unseeing at the ceiling, gasps of sound and moans knocked from him with each thrust in. His hands are grasping Cal's shoulders but he's gripping the strong muscles of Cal's thighs and butt with his mind, urging him on.

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There's hardly a need to urge him on, but it's effective. Over the years, he's thought so much about how he'd like this reunion to be, what he might like to do. A lot of it had included more ... finesse than this, but it hardly matters now. Not when this is more than enough, when Luke's eyes are so clouded with pleasure, when every thrust pulls those wonderful noises from his throat.

Some part of his mind remembers that Luke had said something about riding him, but stopping now would simply be madness. So he keeps going, his breath getting heavier and heavier, his thrusts losing the rhythm as need and heat take over all of his senses.

Until it's over, and he shakes and trembles with the last shallow, mindless thrusts and he burrows his face against Luke's throat because he never wants to leave him again.

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Finesse is for when the longing borne of absence has been sated somewhat. They have time to rediscover all the best ways they come together, and even the less than best ones will be fun to find on the way.

He's probably tangled himself too deep into the bond, but he can't care because Cal's pleasure is intoxicating and addicting and feeds his own need. He takes everything Cal offers and feeds it back to him and however soon the climax comes doesn't matter, because it's shared and he's tightening and twisting on Cal's cock, under his hands. And as he sinks into the bed, shivering softly, his mind lets go of Cal, even though he's leaning up to chase another kiss.

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Somehow, for all that Luke's presence in the Force is often overwhelming, Cal hadn't realised how tightly woven they were until Luke draws back. Suddenly he feels a little empty, even as he's wrapped up in Luke's warmth and scent and he instinctively moves to fulfil that search for a kiss. And though he presses their lips together with insistence, he can't find the energy for much more than that, and after a few moments he breaks away with a huff of laughter to carefully lower his entire body down onto Luke's.

He's sure it's fine if he just stays in this heat for a little while longer before pulling out, nuzzling Luke's temple and brushing his fingers idly down his arm.

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Luke is small, not fragile. He pulls Cal down onto him, hugging him briefly and then letting his arms just rest around Cal's neck and shoulders. He doesn't want him to move, enjoying the weight and the heat and the contentment of feeling Cal in him.

He hums softly at the nuzzle, smiling to himself. "Welcome home, Cal," he whispers.